Hudson Taylor

I'm currently reading/have been reading on an off for the past three months The Spiritual Secret of Hudson Taylor. I've been impressed with the fact that Taylor comes across as a normal human being. Many times I'll read an autobiography of a missionary and feel so terrible about my own life. That I don't measure up or have the faith like these people, who seemingly have everything together. I'll find myself thinking do I have what it takes to do what I feel that I'm called to do?
Then I came across the numerous journal entries of Taylor and have been refreshed to see that this giant in the faith of missions struggled mightily with doubt and he freely wrote about his troubles. Yes, he did amazing things in China and yes, God used him incredibly, but he was also a mere man with the same struggles that all of us face. A quick excerpt from his book pg. 134

We have need of patience, and our faithful God brings us into experience which, improved by His blessing, may cultivate in us this grace. Though we seem to be tried at times almost beyond endurance, we never find Him unable or unwilling to help and sustain us; and were our hearts entirely submissive to His will, desiring it and it only to be done, how much fewer and lighter would our afflictions seem.
I have been in much sorrow of late, but the principal cause I find to want of willing submission to, and trustful repose in, God, my Strength. Oh, to desire his will to be done with my whole heart...to seek His glory with a single eye! Oh, to realize more of the fullness of our precious Jesus...to live more in the light of His countenance, to be satisfied with what He bestows...ever looking to Him, following in His footsteps and awaiting His glorious coming! Why do we love Him so little? It is not that He is not lovely. It is not that He does not love us...that was forever proved on Calvary.. Oh, to be sick out of love for Jesus, to be daily, hourly longing, hungering, thirsting for His presence!